Applying the steps

And we have ceased fighting

In my first step, I listed anger as one of my addictions. Today, it is the hardest of them all to kick. I sit here at the laptop, after reading a news article about someone I know who has helped me in my recovery. The article is a prime example of muckraking, and I will not post a link to it.

Yet, I am responsible for something here. I am responsible for my anger.

In step 3, I made the decision to turn my will and my life over to the care of God as I understood Him. I also began to live as if God was my Employer. I was to let go of resentments, in step 4, and forgive the people who had harmed me in any real or imagined way, step 4-8.  In step 10 I am to root out the anger, and get rid of it, talking to another immediately, as well as making amends as quickly as I can for any harms I have done.

Yet this anger hurts. I am hurting for the person named in the article. Currently, they are quite far away, and cannot answer the article in person. This anger is two fold. I am angry at the reporter, for repeating lies, and I am angry at the liar.

The only thing I can do, is to get it down on paper, talk to another, and pray. I have to pray not just for my mentor. (I had done a 5th step with this person, ergo they qualify as a mentor.) I also have to pray for the reporter and for the liar. See page 552 of the 4th edition Big Book if you are curious as to why.

I cannot take action on my anger in any other way. It is the correct thing to do, and it is what my Boss wants me to do. So, I will get right on that.

Have a good day, if you have any questions, please leave a comment below.

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